each and everyday of my life

Degree life ~Part I~

2008-08-17T23:46:00.000-07:00

Alright, to begin with, in the beginning of May 2008, I went to Inti Online, to check my results....Ok, I couldn't believe I scored Full As', Cuz I didn't really know what the hell I wrote on the papers for all the subjects, I wasn't expecting this, though...After gettin' results, I had had another headache again, I really needed to decide which course to major in....Before this, I've been saying "Aiya, still got long time to go what?1 more year to decide, when time comes only see how la", I couldn't believe time has flown away in such speed and manner...It was all just like yesterday....In the end, I chose to major in Marketing...

And there went my journey of Marketing courses...I took up 5 subjects this sem, and it was like "Omg", 5 subjects, of which one of them is a 100% coursework, and the other 4 with final exams...To conclude, I had 8 major assignments, 4 tests, and 5 presentations...I'm lucky to be here, being able to write a blog, I thought I couldn't make it thru, but along the way, the stress could never be avoidable, it was just inevitable....Now that the final exam was over, and I must admit that I could've done better for my finals, but it was just too late to say that....If only time could turn back, but would I fully utilize the times? that was a good question...Well, I believe everyone in my class also barely had the time to do revision, cuz the assignments were just endless, sometimes they all even just came in one package, and we were so occupied just to get them done.. Not just the assignments, we also had 4 tests in between...and almost every time we finished our assignments, we needed to do presentation....It was just so rush that we had no time left after all the completions of the assignments, tests and presentations, and that the final was really just around the corner......

One thing I must admit, I really was attempted to major in accounting courses, but I just don't like it, I don't know why.... All those who were really close to me in foundation course, most of them chose Accounting courses, while I alone walk on the path of Marketing. That time, I just happened to know that, Kian Peng, Michael, Jing Jun, will be in Marketing, I ain't that close to them during my foundation time....Howard joined in too, but withdrawn not long ago, cuz he be flying to US soon, to further his studies there, I was truly glad for him to have such an opportunity to go overseas, but I was a bit sad simultaneously, just cuz another friend of mine be leaving me...But it's okay, I believe friendship is not gonna end this way, it will last longer than forever....

Well, to talk about the experience, it was really good, I am happy that I chose Marketing, I really couldn't imagine myself mixing the accounting students, finance students all the times, they look really nerdy to me, no hard feelings, I don't like to be in classes with segregation, cuz I believe it is a fate for all us to be in the same class, studying in the subjects, being able to communicate with each other. I am really glad cuz marketing students behave that way, the way that I much much preferred. There's nothing we cannot talk about, there is nothing we won't talk about, there's nothing to be not talked about, we are all just open up for any topics, so long we can talk...haha...

One thing I must praise about marketing students, is the ability to go out having fun while we are all so stressed out of the endless assignments and others, I still remember, very vividly
, that upon the completion of our 4th assignment, we decided to go clubbing to shake all the stress away, I was quite surprised that we had about 10+ mates turning up for that event, let me list them down and some photos be posted...Oops, before that, we had dinner at Yuen Steamboat too.

Attenders : Chong Lun, Wai Kay, Danielle, Sheue Nee, Tracy, Peggy, Michael, Jing Jun, Min Hoe, Chin Aik, Eric Lo, and Xiao Long. Here are some of the best photos...Have a look~

Well, from left to right: Danielle, Tracy, Sheue Nee and Wai Kay....

And it's girl gang, don't know why wai kay joined in...hmmm...Something's wrong

Guy Gang:

From left to right

First row: Xiao Long, Me, Michael and Jing Jun

Second row: Wai Kay and Eric

Girls in my class

Left to Right: Sheue Nee, Tracy, Danielle and Peggu

Spicegirls II? Pussycat dolls II? Destiny's Child 2? Whatever, you decide...

All of us before "In Da Club"

Left to right:

First row: Michael, Wai Kay, and Jing Jun

Second row: Tracy, Sheue Nee, Peggy, Renee, Eric, Me and Xiao Long

We all look so "fresh", but all this was before the night fell on us....hahahaa

Well, all of us were wanting to get drunk and we started to look for alcoholic drinks, they just couldn't wait, could they???

Well, Whose hand reaching out for the alcohol?I guess it's Renee, Eric and Chin Aik, couldn't care less, just started without waiting for anyone.

Peggy busy getting herself one...hahaha

Well, We had all come to a stage where we reached the highest drunken state

Everybody was so high...really high...

One, Two, Three, Cheers, Girls!!

Well, my face is starting to get red...

Well, Well, my face is really red like a tomato, I guess????

Haha, Eric's getting red as well,

Only those three fellas, not even a bit, affected...

Well, my face turned normal again....

Some people might just know the reason, but some don't...

And I, and I'm not telling you....

hahahaha

Well, maybe Eric was a bit tired...So, he fell asleep....

My eyes looked kinda tired too....but I just ain't gon sleep...Not yet...

Why those two girls look so fresh????Weren't they tired?

Almost forgot that one of the purposes was to celebrate Peggu's and Danielle's Bdays in advance,

Cuz we knew we would have no time in July, cuz of those damned assignments

Anyhow, to conclude, it was a great Barcelona Night, everyone seemed to enjoyed, or at least I hope they really did...

Here I would conclude the first chapter of Degree Life~See you soon...

Pen off,
Destiny's devil
With love...

Love....

2008-05-12T11:32:00.000-07:00

Love is the sweetest dream and yet the most beautiful nightmare....Everything starts sweet and ends bitter....

For me, love needs sexual contact, sexual contact is one of the important elements in maintaining a relationship...It ain't the most important element,though...Some people might just think that it's not a big deal at all, and that they totally ignore it. Sexual contacts bring a relationship to another higher level of intimacy between couples, which soul contacts can never do. It does fade away if there's no sexual contact involved. Imagine, if you are just to chat with your lover day and night, without having a sense that sexual contact is important too,and you totally ignore it, do you think it'll last long? I doubt so, if you really are so desperate to look for people to chat with but with no sexual contacts involved, yeah, why not you just look for normal friends with whom you can chat till the morning light? I believe you guys won't kiss each other? hold hands and so on? Would you?

Well, talk about soul contact, I cannot say that this is not listed as one of the important elements, because to me, we need a little understanding, not whole....When you get to understand every single part of one another, not just the merits that lie within the persons you are dealing with will appear, even the darkest sides or the ugliest sides that hide deeply within the persons will just show up, whether you wanna let it show or not, or even whether intentionally or unintentionally. Well, understand when it's necessary, avoid it when it's necessary too...Because truths aren't all the times pleasant to all the people who are concerned with. Why know it when you have the choice not to?

Next, about the popular issue "Do unto others like you want others to do unto you"....vice versa-ly, if you do not wish others to do something that you don't like to you, then shall you not do things people don't like to them. For instance, you don't like to be disturbed while you are having a sound sleep, so shall you not disturb others while they are in their sleep, but this is only applicable when both parties share the common interests or thoughts. Very obviously, the main idea of this is to remind people that we shall not be selfish, only center ourselves. We should always look from other sides of the matter. If you seek to be cared, first you seek to care.

Related to the issue mentioned above, what if none of the parties share the common thoughts?For example, you hate to be disturbed( in a sleep), but does that means others think the same too? I doubt so, from my point of view, and as I am, I think that one wouldn't mind to be awaken up by his or her lover, whether to chat or to meet up. Well, of course everyone thinks differently....I believe a lover is someone who will always be there for you no matter what happens and will never bother how troublesome it could ever be. In this case, when both parties do not share the interests in common, the only thing that they can do is compromise.

Speaking of compromising, which we will learn about give and take. You want somebody to care about you, first you must care about others without thinking of what you will get from doing so. Give without calculating how much "profits" you will gain, Receive without calculating how much the "products and services" are worth of. This is the only way to maintain a relationship.

If you fail to secure a relationship, you guys have to work it out yourselves. You are the only one who can pick it up again,not anyone else. One-way-communication never works for a couple, neither does one-way-efforts help.

That's all for today~

Thank you.

With love,
Pen off with,
Destiny's devil a.k.a Sin Wei

Billboards In Malaysia!!

2008-03-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

Was a bit boring, my friend, Sow Wah called me up at all of a sudden. She said she was boring, asked me out, and when I got into the car that time, she was talking about the advertisement, all she ever mentioned was the advertising methods. Well, can't blame her, she major in Advertising,haha, this is so far the best knowledge she ever has had that can surpass my intelligence, damn perasan la, me..Well,One thing that got me attracted was one of the advertising methods which was "Street Furniture", I felt curious.

I : What the hell is that?
Sow Wah : Outdoor Advertising lo
I : What?Again??
Sow Wah : Neh, those advertisements you can see everywhere on the road da,not at home one...like billboards ah, hoardings, even bus also got"
I : Ohh, I see...

Suddenly, she pointed at those billboards..And I quickly took out the camera phone, and

I: Eh, Sow Wah, drive slowly la, I'm taking out my camera now and take photo,dont drive so fast!
Sow Wah: You siao already ah?Suddenly take those billboards?You never ever seen Billboard in your life meh? Crazy!"
I: I like you like?
Sow Wah : You like you like!Alright, I'll just drive slow...

Here are those pics that I've captured...hehe...
This is the Billboard for GETHA, a furniture brand.
At Desa Petaling.

This was my favourite drinks, when I was a kid, didn't realize that they have got so many kinda flavours now, and the ad is as well interesting.Haha..This is nearby the Parkson in OUG...

Next to Ribena Billboard, comes the Pepsi, the latest product which is totally sugar free.

Beverages again, Just realized that many companies using billboards to advertise their beverage products,huh? but this billboard is located nearby my secondary school, in Kuchai Lama.

This is the Billboard by Faber Castell, at USJ, Subang Jaya there.
Never know that even stationery company also needs to use this kinda method,
It's quite rare to see a stationery company doing this.
This is Maxis Billboard, never thought it's just above the overhead bridge, along the Old Klang Road...Hmm...
Well, even telecommucation companies also got themselves into the trend of billboards?hahaha...this billboard is placed opposite of Parkson, at OUG.

Wow, even AirAsia also using billboard, I cant believe that I would see Air Asia billboard on the federal highway nearby the Mid valley, a shopping complex....I mean, I have been living in this area for 20 years, and I never even realized about it..hahaha,what a shame...

2008-01-04T23:29:00.000-08:00

I still remember, last year, same place, same time, I was writing a post,about the arrival of 2007...This year, same place, same time, I am again writing a post, but about my welcoming for 2008!

2oo7,

Studies:

Initially, I planned to further my studies in U.K, but in the end I aborted the plan due to few reasons

1) It is too pricey for the cert that I can easily acquire in local, although different Universities. Comparing the price, in U.K, a rough estimation of investment which costs almost 5 times the investment in local if I were to take my degree cert(Just Degree!!)!Imagine, with just RM50k-60k to acquire a degree cert, there are so many things that can be done with the rest RM 200k+, can even save the money for Masters cert. There is no point to get me convinced to take my degree in U.K, what a waste of money!Anyhow, RM 280k is just a rough or gross estimation, the real figure is yet to be exactly and accurately calculated.

2) Besides pricey, to save money is the next intention, whether for furthering Masters studies or not, if a great amount of money is saved, I believe it can surely be useful in some other things.

3) Family and friends (Food as well). Very obviously, I was born in Malaysia, endless accumulation of friends (new friends), and family.. How can you tell me to abandon my family and friends and live a lonely life, although I am always ready all the time to make new friends.Needless to say, U.K's foods are no match for M'sia's. Don't take it personal, this is just merely my two cents.

4) Extra burden for family. I don't wanna see my parents working harder than usual to support me financially to further studies in U.K. After all, Local Colleges have partnerships with foreign Universities.

After the abortion of the plan, I started to look for local colleges to pursue my studies. Had done some surveys, and finally decided to join Inti College, it is not the best compared to famous colleges like Taylor's, HELP, MONASH ,SUNWAY and so on, yet it couldn't be the worst. It fits in the category of middle-class and affordable colleges. Took up CBF( Certificate in Business Studies- Foundation), will later decide which subject to major in upon the completion of CBF. So far, I have been enjoying studying in Inti, except for I have to go here and there for classes. You guys know what I am talking about, don't you?

Friendships:

Hmmm, have made some new friends when I first attended college, but still in touch with my other friends ( primary, secondary and working). Unlike 2o05, I'm pretty satisfied. Every friend has been a great friend for me.I love ya guys!!

Relationships:

Hmmm, it wasn't a good year for me at all, If I had to talk about my love...Not until the Xmas where I found my true love. I hope this lasts forever. (Dear, I love you~~!)

Working:

Been taking quite many part-time jobs, just quited all except for SONY, but I as well seldom accept jobs lately.....Quited all resulted in no income, gonna die soon, so be planning to work again, will see how..hehe..

Overall:

It was a better year compared to 2006, more than just better if compared to 2005, yet it wasn't the best!I hope that 2008 will be a greater year for me,hehe~

Everyone who is reading or reads or has read or read this, I hereby wish you Happy New Year 2008!!May all the best go to you this year, on and on..All the best in your future undertakings, may all your dreams come true,good luck in 2008~~Be happy

Bday 2007

2007-12-29T11:29:00.000-08:00

It wasn't a nice timing this year, for my birthday, I was having my final examinations for semester 2, CBF..So, basically, it resulted all the celebrations to be postponed..This was the first time I celebrated my birthday late...Wasn't expecting much of this,but it was still alright...

First of all, I'd like to dedicate my thanks to some people out there..

Frienster : Aaron, Min Hoe, and Mun Yee..

Thanks for your testimonials...

Smses (In accordance): Chui Yeng, Bhawani, Sow Wah, Mun Hoe,Eleen, Chi Hsiang, Choon Keet,Hoi Yan, Zhen Liang, Li Ann, Wei Sheng, Sui Hui, Edson,Chin Yee, Victor,Soo Aun, Yan Lyn, Jia Tze, Kar Mun, Roy,Cheryl, Timothy, Chi Kit, Audrey Lim, and May Lim

Thanks for remembering my bday!

Calls : Zec and Hoi Yan

Msn : Su Vei, Howy, Louis, Michael, Mun Kiat and Desmond

Thanks for your wishes...

Celebrations:

15.12.07
My classmates and I had the last paper :MGT 186 today, after that, as planned, we went out to celebrate my bday and as well as Wai Tent's farewell, she would be moving to Taylor next year. Although feeling sad to know that, but still wish her all the best in her future undertakings. It was just a normal lunch at Secret Recipe..But fantastic food!

Participants : Ji Yung, Wai Tent, Li Ann, Chia Fung, Michael, and Siok Yeong.

15.12.07

At night, went out to have dinner with family. Nothing much to say,hehe..

17.12.07

Today, my son, Zec (my penang friend, 17-year-old guy) came to K.L to visit me and Kar Voon. As planned, we had steamboat in Kar Voon's place tonight, all of us got really high, I screamed until no voice. The food was wonderful, I love the soup and the chilli, damn tasty...Chee Fung came late today, so we went to the bar beside, Jia Tze holding the mic singing like there was no tomorrow, some were playing pool, some were sitting there doing nothing. Later on when Chee Fung had done with his food, we went for second round at Wings, a cafe, had some chit chat there, after that, we went back to Kar Voon's place, hmm, not exactly his place, as our eyes were focusing on the bar beside, we went into it, the boss was quite generous, FOC us few shots of tequila, tonight I was very very happy and yet sad for personal stuff. Haha, some funny stuff happened, we were drunk, but we still wanted to play mahjong, and I truly believed that Jia Tze was totally drunk. Chee Fung even vomitted, yew~ disgusting...Haha, but had a damn great night!

Participants:

Steamboat: Kar Voon, Jia Tze, Min Hoe, Chi Hsiang, Wai Keat, Edson, Mun Kiat, Chi Kit, Zec, Chee Fung, Ke Xin and Kar Mun.

Wings: Kar Voon, Jia Tze, Chi Hsiang, Wai Keat, Mun Kiat, Chi Kit, Zec, Chee Fung and Kar Mun

Bar: Kar Voon, Zec, Jia Tze, Wai Keat and Chee Fung

Special thanks for gift (Topman's wallet) : Kar Mun, Yi Wen, Eleen and Su Yen

18.12.07

Supposedly, today I had a date with this gang, but then two of them were busy at all of sudden, so plan changed. Planned to go sunway lagoon initially, in the end we had movies in Mid Valley, Golden Compass, it was really a good movie. Yan Lyn and Sui Hui told me that they needed to buy something for their Mamas, actually they went to EchoPark to buy me a present, it was a shirt, and I love it. Was really touched.

Participants : Jia Tze, Kar Mun, Kar Voon, Zec, Sui Hui, Yan Lyn and Wai Keat.

21.12.07

Hmmm, today had a date with 2 pretty girls. Just a normal dinner, but a little special as two cute cakes were presented. After that, Mahjong time!!And got a present as well, It's Beyonce's DVD, Ohh My god, Love it so much

Participants :May Lim and Chui Yeng

23.12.07

We had Japanese Steamboat shabu shabu at Puchong, was really nice. I got a big big cake, they purposely asked the shop for the strawberries, I was so touched, I love to eat strawberries and them guys just got those strawberries for me!!After shabu shabu, we went to Steffy's house for mahjong, however, this was the first time I wasnt participating in playing Mahjong, just a speculator,hahaha...

Participants : Steffy, Steffy's boyfriend(Sorry, I dont know your name), Hui Ki, Jia Tze, Zec, and Kar Voon

Special thanks for kiki, for the souvenirs,hehe..

Special sorry for Jia Tze, for what happened that night...

I guess I would have to stop here, shall put a full stop to my bday chapter..hehe

And for those people mentioned above, just wanna let you know that forever and ever you guys will be in my heart, it rockz to have friends like you guys...Love ya so much,Muackzz!!

My Beloved Dog, Goodbye.....

2007-10-03T04:00:00.000-07:00

I still remember when you were first brought back to my home, you were just a little puppy, so cute and naughty....For the first night at my house, you were terrified and scared, probably that was the first time you were separated from your mama and your siblings, I held you in my embrace, to let you know that I would take care of you, you were sleeping very sound. Looking at you, I wasn't willing to fall asleep, I leaned against the wall, stroking you. I actually could hear you cry sometimes in the middle of the night, I know you missed your family.

After quite a few days, I believed you had adapted to the new environment, you started to walk around in the house, playing with the toys and so on. Besides that, you started giving me troubles that I had to clean up the place so many times. And then I never heard you cry anymore, I was very convinced that you considered yourself to be part of the family and us to be your family.

Very soon, you had become even "bigger", you were so hyperactive that I barely had the energy to deal with you. You were very intelligent, you knew how to play hide and seek very well, you knew how to "grab the food in the air", you knew many things that I never thought a dog would be capable of being that way...But you were too mischievous, you knew the troubles you had caused. We never really wanted to punish you because the pain you had physically was equal to the pain we had mentally in our heart, but we had to, so that you wouldn't make the same mistakes again.

One thing I always put myself on blame was my intention to let you go as all of the family members including me were very busy with studies and careers. I still remember that day, you were brought into the car, you looked at me, as if you wanted to tell me " Yeah, I am going out play for a while and later I'll be home", like a child telling parents... Although you couldn't say that or convey whatever you feel in words that I understood, but I could see it from your eyes. The moment when the car was driven off, I couldn't help crying...I heard from my friend that you were crying quite many times especially in the middle of the night, for the first few nights. But I knew that you could deal with that very easily, and get adapted to the new environment, your sister "Sporty" was there as well, you wouldn't feel lonely and you weren't alone at all as there were friends for you to play with in my friend's house...I knew that you were strong!

Sometimes when I had the free time, I would go to my friend's house to bring you out for a stroll. I strongly believed that you could recognize me, as you were jumping towards me when you saw me. When I had to go home, there was always some kinda bitter feelings got into me, I didn't wanna let you go, but I had to. I kissed you, kept stroking you, until I really passed over the chain to the Kakak. You barked at me as I was leaving. I felt terribly bad every time after a visit.

Over the years, I kept tracking your life, making sure that you were always in good terms. Walked to you when I was free, out for some strolls. Missing you at night, looking at the photos with you inside.

Until today, 2nd October 2007, I was informed that you got into a serious disease. You were infected by the bacteria brought by rats. If I would have arrived at the hospital earlier, at least I could see you moving a little bit, even just a little bit. But one minute before I arrived, you stopped breathing. I looked at you, your eyes still were opened, wide, looking at me, but you weren't moving at all, you weren't shaking your tail and barking at me like you used to everytime you saw me. I didn't dare to touch you, or stroke you, not because of being afraid to be infected by the bacteria, but I couldn't accept the fact that you were gone, forever....I was afraid it would make me feel worse or sadder knowing that I couldn't see you anymore after tonight. I stood aside, crying . I couldn't do anything else, all I ever did was crying silently.

Later, my friend's family was on the way to the hospital, doctor told me that you had to be packed, I went out, standing at the door, looking from outside, how they packed you! Again, I cried. In a minute, they arrived at hospital. The pack was opened under their request. All of them were crying, and I was too. This time I decided to touch you, your body was still warm, very warm, I couldn't believe that you were gone. I was crying non-stop, while stroking you so passionately like the first night I did to you. You were dead, gone forever. And you left me just like that, leaving me alone here, crying, grieving over your death, why did you do this to me? WHY???

I went home later, after a shower, I thought of you and I cried again. But very soon, I fell asleep. I woke up at 4 in the morning, decided to update my blog by adding a post about you...As the words were being typed, the tears were summoned and rolling down my cheek over and over again. Friends be trying to comfort me, and I thanked them but I really need some time, I can't persuade myself to assume that everything is alright with just so little time.

My beloved ex-dog, "Pretty", thank you for giving me the happiest moments, although there were times that you made me angry, of course for your mischief behaviours...Thank you very much, and forever I will put you here in my heart, never let anyone take it away from me, never let time efface anything about you!And forever I'll remember 2nd October 2007, I promise.

And I'm sorry, my "Pretty".........And I love you forever, R.I.P....

College Life...

2007-08-18T23:59:00.001-07:00

On 7th May 2007, it was a monday, the first day I would be attendin' classes in college, Inti College. Honestly, I was a bit nervous. Firstly, it had been a year more that I didn't communicate with studies, second bein' I was new and knew no one in this college. I had to start all over again...

For the first few days, class was totally quiet, as if there was only himself or herself and the lecturer in the classroom, nobody else. I guess it should be a normal phenomenon, since everyone had to start all over again like I had to. Lecturers were helpin' to break the silence occurred in the class, (ALL of the lecturers assigned to my class, no exception) with a very common "Tradition". I bet you have had it in your mind right now, one word, a combined word, "Ice-Breakin'". To be frank, I don't really think this lil game "Ice-breakin'" be much of help in any ways.

Days after days, the class started to get on the track, everyone in the class started knowin' more and more about each other. Though, few gangs were divided and seperated. For me, I actually had had different gangs, which meant that I didn't have any assigned gang. The first gang I created was " F Trend Gang". Thinkin' hard of what the hell is F Trend? Let me tell you about this F Trend, stands full as Fuckin' Trend. It sounds a bit rude or harmful, but don't get me twisted, my F Trend is not that literal, although we will put "Fuckin'" into our sentences, but that is only for fun or to show emphasis on somethin', we don't use that to scold people. Ohh, forgot to mention the members, originally Me, Ji Yung aka Mushroom(you guys know why), Howard aka Howy, Benson aka "Ham Sap Kia".. Soon or later, I moved to other gang simultaneously maintainin' the relationship with F Trend Gang, The next gang was "Ipoh Mali Gang", why? Easy! Two were from Ipoh, Poh Yee aka 38( Ask 'em chickz why) and Koon. Ohh, others ma me and Anyon aka Onion. After a while, I was with a new gang, consisted of Wai Tent, Li Ann aka watermelon hunter, and Chia Fung aka Labuan Kia.These 3 gangs were actually in which I'm most active. I did mix with others like Apple, Wei Hou, Cheryl, Nic, Edwan,Bhawani, Yun Qi and so on. The gangs I was involved in were actually very complicated, not in terms of their backgrounds, but the relationships or should I say memberships? More and more people joinin' and some even jumped from this gang to another one...Funny,huh?

Hmm, besides havin' interesting coursemates, I actually forgot to mention about my lecturers a bit. Miss Rosemary, maths lecturer, she is a very good lecturer. In my opinion, her speed was just at what I requested, although some said she taught too fast. One thing about her was she explained well, easily understood. She would explain in another way if you couldn't get it, unlike some who would just explain the same things over and over again. Next, my econ lecturer, Mr.Gopi. He always brought a very hilarious atmostphere into the class, it was quite fun to study in his class. And you would never know when he was talkin' real or jokin', so unpredictably. Ohh, Madam Malinee, a very serious lecturer. Yep, you gotta put your handphone away and not to let her see it in your phone, or she would look quite pissed off or mad at you. Indisputably, she is a very dedicated lecturer, always ready to teach and with lotsa patience. Her english language was horribly perfected! There was no reason for me to complain at all. Okay, "Students, any QUESIONS??", a very great introduction for this lecturer! Guys, tell me right now, whom have you had in your mind? Opps, Miss Ang. Nothin' special just that she reminded me bit of my secondary school teacher, Miss Kok. They both were quite alike, how? In their teachin' methods. Very knowledgeable!Ahh, Mr. Victor, my computin' lecturer. Frankly speakin', I was so lost that I didn't know nothin' he taught all along, he just vomitted the words out from the text books. Well, he was actually quite okay la..

Askin' for my satisfaction? Yes, I was more than just happy to have been positioned in this class. I wish to get into the same class again in the next sem with this bunch of friends except for some quiet ones. I like to hang out with friends! Nerds are actually welcomed as long as you do hang out. All those 24-hour-bookaholic or studiholic, please stay away from me. No hard feelings!

Done bloggin', take care, love ya guys!

Love,
Sin Wei aka Destiny's Devil

Final's Life...

2007-08-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

I told myself, I would start my revision two weeks before my finals, but what had I done? I delayed till the eleventh hour to start revision, and the problem was I didn't even have the mood to revise eventhough I knew the finals would start tomorrow...In the end, I just went to the exam hall without any knowledge in my head. I was startin' to fear the grades I gon get.

Like SPM, I barely had enough sleep for this final, except for Malaysian Studies and Econ. Monday for Malaysian Studies, I told myself to wake up at 3 in the morning, but I was up at 7.30am, what the...Sigh, I never have high hopes for this at all. The next day, Econ paper. Well, I tried to study, but I really didnt know what to study. Had a tough time in finishin' the paper. For computin', the most sufferin' night ever, I had to swallow the whole text book before the morning arrived. Realized there was not enough time to swallow whole, so decided to check and analyze all the past years questions. Undeniably, the paper couldnt be any easier for me, it was tough at max!Well, time to slow down a bit, it was maths on thursday. I had to admit that I didn't do well in the maths paper. Totally disappointed!!This was it, this was the day, I didn't have to touch the book, cuz it was English on friday!Nothin' to study, was there? I could finally sleep so soundly and long enough!One thing I needed to say was it was damn tough, I mean it. I had no idea what it was all about.

All in all, I ain't gon get good grades for this final, I guess.

My quote "So far, 5 days, 5 papers, finals done, 5As' confirmed GONE!!"

Wish me luck!!!

Btw, All the best to my coursemates!

Love,
Sin Wei aka Destiny's Devil

2007?too soon or too slow?

2007-01-04T05:56:00.000-08:00

Wow, could never really imagine that I've not been studyin' for one whole year, it's kinda embarrassin' when I see every one attendin' the college or former school for form six....And me? Still wanderin' around? Doin' nothin'? Of course not?!!!!!!!!! I didn't know why I could have wasted lotsa times back in 2006, but all I know is 2007 is surely not goin' to go easy on me....I might really have a tough life, I guess...I don't hope for anythin' extra,just hope to get thru all the "TESTS" and make it all thru the rain....Don't accuse me for bein' greedy! Haha....

Well, I do realize that runnin' away from reality is human nature.In 2006,I'd actually hoped that time could just stop at that moment which I was drowned in happiness that nothin' would seem to go wrong....But that was wrong, absolutely wrong.. Time would still move eventhough we'd want to stop 'em....What to do? If you can't fix it, you gotta stand it.....

On 31st December 2006, history in my life, I went to "The Curve" at Damansara joinin' thousands of people for 2007's countdown, for the first time in my life.Years ago,I never wanted to go because I hate bein' in someplace crowded that my skin couldn't actually take it, so pathetic for gettin' stuck to this lil illness since young when everyone else could have always gone to somewhere they'd like to....As the clock moved "tick tick tack" , people started screamin' "5,4,3,2,1", at the moment, just that moment, I felt like cryin' as I was startin' to fear the comin' of 2007, I really couldn't know what kinda life could 2007 lead me to.....All the anticipation that
I kept for the comin' of 2007 was lost at that moment, what brought it back and stopped me from thinkin' nonsense was the "fireworks"....It was really so beautiful, so fabolous, so gracefully flown into the dark sky, I believed for that duration, the moon was abandoned and put aside as its light could never have brightened up the whole dark sky, the fireworks just appeared to have coloured the "dark and stained" sky and simultaneously, my heart as well....Thanks a lot, fireworks(or The Curve)!!!!

"2007, too soon or too slow?", this question seems to be a lil bit "pointless" since it was already 2007....But it was just a feelin'........

Here I'd like to say goodbye to 2006, the year which gained me the most experience I could never have dreamt to gain...At least, it is a official goodbye message from me to 2006.....And thank you for givin' me the best moments in 2006........

Whatever it may be, for whatever it may await me....All I can do is just waitin' for 'em to come, there's no point bein' afraid of what I can't actually see or predict now.....Whatever, whatever, let it be, just let be.....

And before I would have this posted, I'd like to wish everyone "Happy New Year"......

for 13th December 2006~part 2~

2006-12-21T23:59:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm back, Where did I stop at the last post? Ohh, Well, well, I remember now!!

So, on 12th, I guess I headed home straight after work and had no reasons to go out...Haha

On 13th, the most anticipated date........Just when I stepped into the office, everyone who knew it was my B'day automatically came to my place and said some words to me, errm, "Happy B'day", that was what I heard most from almost everyone.......On the same date, it was actually my company's X'mas lunch too, so it was like "Ohh, I'm so moved since it's like everybody in this legal firm is celebrating for me too", of course, I know it wasn't their intention at all, it was just a mere fantasy I had had in my mind....I still remember, it was about 12pm++, where everyone else would have gotten ready to attend the X'mas lunch, I still had some works at hand, just when I was stratchin' all over my head, since I didn't where the file was located and my superior wasn't in the office, suddenly, I saw two people runnin' towards me, like they were here to capture me alive, sayin' "You are now underarrested", ohh well, again I have been too imaginative lately....They suddenly bumped into me with a cake, they started singin' B'day songs to me, I was so touched at that moment, but tears weren't summoned, See Mun started complainin' "Aiya, gave so much surprises you lil reptile isn't cryin' at all?and tellin' us you are so touched?" ohh, Well, See Mun, do us, people need to cry to express our gratitudes?I'm really so touched, ya, it's true,from the most bottom of my heart....Durin' the X'mas lunch, some voices came out from the corner room,some lawyers suddenly came up with a B'day song, but it wasn't for me,it was for Roseleen,surprisingly, we have the same B'day, right after that, from the place where I had my butt stuck on the seat, people around me openend their mouths and some melodies started to fill up the whole restaurant....Everybody was in a heavenly fine mood, non-exception for me....l!!!!By the way, here's a special thanks to Melanie Tan, Vienna Gan, See Mun, Chyi Chern, Wan Shin, and Gee Kian, thanks for the cake and the gift as well, I love the shirt!!!And for Yit Siong as well, thanks for that Haagen Daz's gift vouchers, and damn that how would you know I love ice-creams most?And Clement, Thanks for that Za Choi Soup, I believed it was as well another great gift I had received this year!Luv y' all so much!!Hehe...

This was another occasion after I off from work, I actually had a small party, a really small party, where it was initially just for my relatives and my family, but my parents told me to ask some friends to attend too, but it was like "I just went out with some friends since few days ago, it seems kinda weird to ask 'em come again?" So, in the end, I just invited 6 friends whom I am really close to...But one couldn't make it, so the rest would be Kar Mun, Kar Chin, Yi Wen, Mun Kiat, and Chi Kit.There was nothin' special to mention on this lil B'day party, because same thin' happened, MAHJONG time, haha...But too bad, I didn't win at all, Mun Kiat did win some...That was just too bad!!!Well,Guys, thanks for comin'......

And for 14th December, almost just an ordinary day, but extra bonus with a dinner with some of my colleagues.....See Mun, Chyi Chern, Melaine Tan, May, Seen Yin and Gee Kian....And nothin' much happened, just some normal chit-chattin'.....

And for this 16th December, just wanna thank you for spendin' your time with me just to replace the celebrate-gather that you had missed due to some reasons you had told me,Victor Liew.....Although it was really tirin' that I had to go out even after work, but at least we had some time to gather...We don't usually gather that often since you have shifted to Cheras,do we?Thanks and I really appreciate it....and about Min Hoe, I almost forgot to mention you,man! Well, I know you were so exhausted after the dancin' competition at Wisma FGA, sorry for draggin' you out till so late....Thanks a lot, and luv y' all!!!

And for those people who wished me, be it a testimonial on friendster or a simlpe sms but either expressed from the bottom of the heart...Of course I wouldn't forget to mention y' all,Thanks for that!!!Here's the Thank-you-list(in accordance):

SMSes-Edson, Kar Leng, Mun Hoe, Chui Yeng, Kar Chin, Chi Kit, Hoi Yan, Kar Mun, Kok Cheng, Min Hoe, Sow Wah, Yong Lock, Poh Ying, Yan Lyn, Soo Aun, and Chi Hsiang....

Testimonials-My junior-Kok Hau-, my god sister-in-law "Yuen Yee", MasterComputer & Sabrina(Although I didn't know who you are, but it was really nice of you to have sent a B'day testimonial to someone you barely know, Haha)

Luv y' all.....

All of you,Thanks for givin' me such an unforgettable B'day of 2006!!!I luv y' all....I swear with my life that I'd never forget y' all and as well this 2006's B'day......If I do, I'll do whatever you guys want me to...(Hope my memory does serve me well again, I really don't hope to get punished just because of my natural-sickness "temporary loss-memory"....God bless me,please)

That's it, end of the story about 13th December 2006....Thank you...

for 13th December 2006~part 1~

2006-12-20T23:50:00.000-08:00

Since the arrival of December, I was really anticipated for the comin' of 13th December 2006, but before that day, for this year, I'd actually expected that it would be less celebrations....But it turned out to be greater than what I had last year...

Firstly, celebration with my CG gang, on 8th of December, surprisingly, the organizer was Chui yeng Aka Ah Lui....She tried her best to set up this Celebrate-gather for me, although the results didn't turn out to be that successful as expected, (You can't blame me for sayin' such thin' when someone tried her best to set up a celebrate-gather for me, because for those who know me well, I'm a very successful organizer,and much more experienced,haha)....It wasn't very pleasant that night, don't misunderstand....It was all about that stupid restaurant, they didn't even let us enjoy the cakes, what the Fuck, if the restaurant does sell cakes, I'm fine with it, but they don't....So, if the B'day celebration was meant to be celebrated without cakes, wouldn't it be just so meaningless?All ever popped up in my mind was "Hey,C'mon,do you sell cakes?If you don't, what the hell reasons for not lettin' the customers to have those cakes placed on the table and ready for us to eat?It's not like I can find anythin' like that in this damn restaurant?" Well, I just kept those words in my mind, just because they did ask us to stop eatin' the damn cakes,but in a polite way, so this was the point to endure since they been very polite to customers, but because of that, neither of us did enjoy that night....And my B'day gift was just a paper? A receipt? Well, a receipt of a pre-ordered CD, guess whose? It's Ayumi's latest studio album "Secret", this album was really anticipated by me, and I got the CD one week later, Haha, Thanks, Guys...... I luv y' all....(Well, I do remember we gambled bit on the mahjong that night?Did I win or on neautral side(which means no loss-no win)?,I couldn't have gotten any cash notes or coins out that night,Haha)

On 9th December, I was with another gang, oh, well, not that many members? Just 4 people includin' me.....Let me name those people out, Kar Mun, Mun Hoe, Yi Wen...Originally, there would be another fella, Su Yen attendin' this celebrate-gather, but failed to make it since she got somethin' to do out of sudden, was told she was stuck in the shopping mall,"Mid Valley" for certain kinds of reasons, Haha...Well, Mun Hoe and Kar mun were in my car, headin' to Yi Wen's house to get her in too, on the way to her house, we were actually discussin' on where to have our dinner, initially, it was planned to have dinner at the steamboat restaurant at Sri Petaling, but Yi Wen complainin' "Huh?that one again ar?Won't ya get bored of it? since everytime we lookin' for steamboat, you SURE would suggest that!!" Well, that caused the hesitation among us, since we didn't really know where else to have it, Mun Hoe did suggest a nice place to have steamboat, but at Subang Jaya, it was far and I hated to get involved in the congestion, well, actually every one of us wanted to go there, just hesitated there quite a duration, then I just shouted at 'em "Ahh,Don't think anymore la, anyone knows the way please lead,don't keep me waitin' for the directions and get lost and end up arrivin' at places neither we know". Everyone seems anticipated about tryin' new restaurant, especially Yi Wen, I can tell that....Haha, we did have a wonderful dinner and it was worth the money, well, I didn't even pay a cent, because 'em guys paid for me statin' that "it is your B'day ma, Sin Wei", after that, Su Yen was done stuckin' up at the Mid Valley, she joined us after the dinner for mahjong...Well,in the end, I brought some extra money back home with me,Lucky Day!!!By the way,by any chance if any of you be readin' this, Thanks for that and I luv y' all.....

On 10th,I didn't recall any memories of celebrating my B'day with anyone....

On 11th, it was a celebrate-gather with my fella juniors, well, or should I call 'em "tau-kei"(which means kids), actually my god brothas been celebratin' for me, again I had to become the driver, since they couldn't even drive as they didn't have license yet. As usual, allow me to name 'em out accordingly, Mun Kiat(First god-brotha), Chi Kit(Second god-brotha), Wei Yeng, Ri Hao......Normally, I would have expected some people would arrive late, I was told that I didn't have to fetch some, this suggested that the "some" would be late,who am I talkin' about?Of course, it's my first god brotha....He always is late, never seems to be punctual enough....Well, it wasn't the first for me to wait for him for so long, already used to it....For this time, we had steamboat again,but it was somehow different in its way of bein' served, instead of "soakin'" the foods into the soup,we "soaked" the foods into the porridge, I never tried before, so had the desire to give it a try, the results were quite satisfyin'. They bought me a cake too, the whole round cake, which I never bought for any friends at their B'day celebrations, because I used to believe that best cakes serve the best no matter it's in whole or just pieces, so I'd prefer cakes(in pieces of course,the whole cake is just too big and expensive) from Secret Recipe over any other...That was the cake with my name written on it, I felt so sweet all of sudden, for my brotha who is always so dumb and passive that I'd expect him to come with empty-plans, but at that moment, he changed my point of view on him...It was really really rare to have some times spent together with my brothas and those tau-keis too, even after the steamboat, I came out with a suggestion of "yam-cha-ing" at some other place, maybe it was for my B'day celebration, so they decided to accompany me for a lil longer. Again, I didn't have to pay a cent,haha, and another wonderful celebrate-gather....Kids, I luv y' all...

Well,there are more to go, but I am a lil bit exhausted for writin' so much in one post,to be continued then....

hmmm?

2006-07-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

seems like just yesterday I were just startin' to work in happy dragon inn(the chinese restaurant in england that i'm currently workin' at...),but it has already been 4 months and 2 weeks,never thought i have been workin' for almost 5 months,and it is soon the time for me to go home to malaysia....dont know if i will feel so unwillin' to go home by that time?

i have submitted everythin' includin' the deposit to the holborn college that i am goin' to study in either october 2006 or march 2007,just depends on the visa application,and that gotta depend on the home office,see if they will approve my application or fail it.....but i really hope that my request will be approved...

well,within this 4 months++,i really have learnt a lot....the society has really no mercy,ya gotta strive to survive or else ya will end up sufferin' from neverendin' stress.....besides knowin' this cruel truth,i also learnt that there's nothin' to rely on if ya wanna succeed in ya life,only one thin' ya can count on is 'yaself' includin' ya spirit and ya dreams...

the other thin' that kept me goin' is all my close frenz......they really were givin' me lotsa support i have never dreamt to get in uk....Mun kiat,my full-time brotha and my part-time boyfren as well,if ya readin' this,i really wanna thank ya a lot cuz without ya i never really could survive anymore......whenever i am lost,i always tryna remember ya,so that i would have gotten the strength i need eventhough ya not here with me.....really thanks lot....Dave,my only britain fren in uk,although we never met each other before but i know we can really be great frenz and we might just meet up someday like we promised,he's two years younger than me,but he's really lovely...i'm really happy to know ya,i barely know no one in this country,and ya the one givin' me lotsa time to spend with ya eventhough that's just sms or on t-n....haha...lil stuart,the only latino in america that i know on t-n as well,he's really lovely and cute....and open as well...haha...next,lackoo,who i used to call 'big brotha',although nowadays i dont chat with ya much,but i still always miss ya,but i just barely have free time to be in front of computer all the times since my holidays were all used up,now my daily life is just workin',sleepin',workin' sleepin'...hope ya will understand my circumstances over here..hehe..and lastly,mais!!the cool guy on t-n that i dont know what to call him since 'big brotha' is already taken by lackoo....he's really cool and i remember he's just one year older than me,he's a norwegian anyway....i really love y' all so much!!!and the most important thin',T-N,because of ya,i got to know the ppl i never dreamt i would even in future...really thank ya a lot....

for others i didnt mention,do take it personally,y' all know i always luv y' all,but i really dont have much time since this computer is not mine,and my fren is gotta use it soon,so bye and take care till i publish the next post...

the day of ravidran's death!!!

2006-07-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

Long time never been updatin' my blog......And there is one thing pushin' me to update my blog which is the death of mr ravidran,although I hate him so much,I never dreamt of hearin' the news like 'he's killed!!',or 'he's dead!!!' or anythin'.....And i never take death as a joke,this is kinda disrespect!!!

It was midnight,I had called it a day since I was off from the work....And all in my mind was 'Tomorrow I'm on leave,should stay up a bit late today!time to get to callin' someone I would like to!!!'..The first one popped up in my mind was my 'Boyfriend',but it was kinda early in msia,supposedly about 8am....He wouldnt have been awake since it was a lovely sunday over there as he didnt have to go to school to face all those unnecessary stress and tension that he shouldnt have been facin' like he used to,so I gave up on that.....And the next pop-up was Kok Cheng,I decided to call him because it had been a long time i never really got contacted with him.....Wonder if he was dead yet?haha...

So,when I gave him a call,and the first thin' i ever heard from him was 'Eh,got the news?ravidran is dead!!!!'....My mind was speakin' out somethin',' Is this some kinda jokes made up by idiots?'.....I asked him,'Where you heard this from?'...'Could it possibly be some typa stupid rumours or prank made by idiots?But doesnt it take too much to make this kinda topic as a joke or prank to be placed on?'...He answered but I found it not helpful at all as he said to me 'I dont know?'....It was sorta shocked me and I was so speechless at that time,so I hung up the call and tryna call someone to discuss about this topic,whether a truth or prank.....So,I gave a ring to soo aun,soo aun told me the same thin'.....And we chatted for quite long,I think...Hmm,maybe almost an hour....And the sky was gettin' brighter,I said 'Omg,it was already 4am here,and I think I'd better go to get a sleep or else would have been shoppin' without energy or self-created word 'energylessly'(maybe it exists in oxford dictionary,but I dont know...haha)?

And before I went to bed,I still was thinkin' of to give a call to my 'boyfriend',overtaken by mind and actions,fingers pressin' the numbers,and never seemed to need to browse thru the phonebook,already be in my mind....Haha...When i called him,he was awake,but unfornately,he gotta attend mr.teng's tuition class...So,just had a few words with him then he gotta get goin' and I gotta get to sleep.....

And few hours later,I was told that the news was true,Mr.ravidran was killed by robbers!!I can tell y' all that I really hate him,but I never dreamt that he will die before I have forgotten him...So,this news was kinda a shock for me.....Well,when this happened,I decided to erase every hatred I summoned in my heart towards mr.ravidran....I dont have to respect him because I never even took a step to disrespect him,and about his death,I really felt so sorry but I understood that he could just never resurrect even if people out there were griefin' for him...So,what I think is I shalln't talk anythin' bad about him...So,for those who hate him,just few words for you,' There is nothin' interestin' to talkin' bad about a man who is dead,whatever y' all might say,he would hear it although sorta spiritually beliefs,dont let him bring the bad words anyone might give him along his way to heaven,just let him rest in peace,that's what we should do!!!'

new poem bornnever was and never will be'

2006-06-02T23:59:00.000-07:00

after watching brokeback mountain by my all-time most favourite actor,jake gyllenhaal, I feel like we should respect homosexual or bisexual, cuz I finally realized that homosexual love can be that deep and touchin' actually!!!This new poem is an homosexual-love themed poem, and to show my respect to homosexual ppl and love....I decided not to appear in the poem as third party but ' I ' ,there u go!

I wont be the one he's thinkin' at night
She is the one to be his guidin' light
I wont be the one he's gonna hold tight
She is the one to make his love shine bright

A pisces gave me all she can
But I just couldnt be her man
Hurtin' her would be a great plan
If she'd get off the dangerous van

When an argument moved along
No endurance was enough strong
Solitude night was always long
perfect fit for a heartbroken song

Although she had left him behind
She still lived on inside his mind
Love was again bein' so blind
Bacardi he was tryin' to find

The sadness had all reduced him to tear
What he said on the phone aint that clear
The loneliness had all summoned his fear
His tremblin' heart whispered in my ear

I was headin' to his place
But she was at greater pace
I was lookin' at his face
And she was in his embrace

I ended up drinkin' Bacardi alone
Got drunken till sanity was all gone
The wind was warm but I was chilled to bone
Lyin' in the street till the sun had shone

I woke up and saw madonna
She was sleepin' in the sofa
It just sounded like a drama
I knew I was in dilemma

He doesnt wanna be another 'Ennis'
Because she is Juliet and Romeo he is
And the story goes on forever like this
I never was and never will be his

away from real home for months?

2006-06-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

Cant really believe that I have been away from my real home for nearly 3 months, there are 3 more months to go for me to go home, to my lovely paradise of delicious foods, Msia, although I am quite addicted to fast food like mcdonalds, KFC, but I still prefer to eat in msia, cuz I can have both fastfood and original oriental foods in msia, unlike england, everythin' fast food, and even the chinese restaurant also a cheater, cuz not servin' the real oriental food, but what choice do they got?Since the western ppl would never really get used to our original oriental food!They cant even eat spicy food, not all, but most of...Anyway,tell u what?Here kfc is very no-good!!Whenever whoever come to uk, never go for kfc, mcdonald is still quite okai!!

I spent my these three months working in a chinese restaurant, and I met a very good boss,they are really good!!Sometimes, I feel guilty when I do something wrong cuz they aren't the type of 'no-mercy', they said they knew I am like ' a piece of white paper, just need time to paint'....So, they very are tolerant on me, I really like my boss, but....I dont really like the colleagues here, cuz they always backbite ppl in front of boss just tryna to step u down from getting above their head, this is really an inevitable circumstance....And I learnt one lesson, whenever one steps out to society, gotta learn to protect yourself even if one doesnt wanna harm ppl, but the truth and the incident always proves that ppl need to be realistic and practical in order to survive in this no-mercy society....I dont see a reason but I really even fail to protect myself as well....I was backbit but I believe the boss is not blind although he never knows what is happening out there....

I really hope the next three months would just pass by in just a blink of an eye....And that's the time to go home to my lovely place that I used to belong.......Haha,quite silly me......

And now I've fallen into the gap between the studies in uk and in msia....I dont know which path shall I take, And I am right here on the fence, or more imaginative, lost in forest, got two paths to choose, both unseen and 'untracked' but look quite alike....Both has its own advantages, but indisputably that the disadvantages always come along with the advantages.....And you will never really know how to make a right decision....What shall I do then?Who can come help me?

This is the ever first post in my blog since I lived my life in uk alone!

--poem-- 'Misunderstood'

2006-04-03T20:56:00.000-07:00

I say to people ‘I’m okay’
Hidin’ my sadness away
And my smiles never betray
But my heart’s losin’ its way

The world is just so lonely and cold
But I don’t reach out for people to hold
Because a pair of hands cost more than gold
And I don’t want to have my soul sold

People always misunderstand
When they’re tryin’ to understand
Like you are usin’ your own hand
Buildin’ up a castle of sand

I never cry like a child beggin’ for ice-cream
Although there are times I find it just hard to scream
I never hope for a life or dream that will gleam
Because my life is gone and I don’t have a dream

People always used to come around breakin’ my heart
And then tellin’ me they didn’t shoot it with the dart
My love’s never grabbed an opportunity to start
Because no heartaches never quickly top the sales-chart

What do I truly want?
An everlasting sun?
Or temporary fun?

Who am I lookin’ for?
Someone I’ve met before?
Or just behind the door?

Why do I have to go?
Can I ever say no?
Or I got to leave so?

Where am I headin’ to?
A peaceful place will do?
Or a well-visited zoo?

When do I get to know?
When my flame’s goin’ low?
Or my light starts to glow?

last day in my home?

2006-03-12T23:58:00.000-08:00

It was 12th Mac, which was the last day in my home before I went to UK for my future....... Recallin' a month before 12th Mac, I been goin' out with friends to celebrate my farewell-gathers........

The most unforgettable farewell-gather was with C.G.... I really love to be with each of them...

The day before 12th Mac, it was 11th, I have booked the day for my god brotha, Mun Kiat..... Why was him on the last day? Easy, it was because he was the last one I wished to see before I leave....Actually,not only for my farewell-gather, it was also for his birthday celebration,but his actual birthday falls on 16th Mac, I couldnt celebrate with him since I might have arrived at England for days..... So, I used that chance to celebrate for him.... And that day, I bought a present for him, guess what? He's a crazy fan of Manchester United, a football team, so I bought him a MU jersey, my wallet started bleedin' again, Lol... And you know what? I hate buyin' presents for people, cuz I didnt know what to buy!!!! And I normally take ages to decide of what to buy! Haha, but for my god brotha, I didnt have to think, all he's crazy about is FOOTBALL, especially england team, MU..so, I just bought him that jersey without any second thought.... I hope he loves it...

Frankly speakin', I was quite scared when I started thinkin' of that I will live my life in UK without my parents... But I hope everythin' will work out for me....

Another thing, SPM results! I was damn scared.... I told my teacher, Pn.koay that my god brotha will take the results for me.....But then that stupid ravidran! How could he be so busybody? Not his business also wanted to get involved! IDIOT! But everything worked out when I called Pn koay again... Haha....Well, hat day 13th Mac,It was around 4am in Uk, so I was sleepin' , and Chui Yeng smsed me, tellin' me her results, 7As le,so good.....I only got 5As,excludin' 1119.... Well, frankly speakin', I never expected to score A1 for 1119, but it was true..... When they people tellin' me i scored A1 for 1119, I found it hard to believe, I thought it was a prank since everybody knew I do concern about my 1119 very much... I still couldnt believe it until I called up pn koay to confirm about my results... Ya, it wasnt a prank!

Well, here I congratulate everyone who did well in their spm!

over and done??NEVER for central gangstars!!

2006-02-27T23:59:00.000-08:00

It was 25th Jan, I still remember, when two of Central gangstars were asked to leave for certain reasons, I dont feel like mentionin' the case, cuz it was a sad thing to mention about... What I think is 'Leave it be' .... It was done and couldnt be undone anyway.....

The day after 25th, it was 26th obviously, when part of the Central gangstars, 3 central gangstars worked for the last day in central hypermarket...... And then,there been 5 partners left me... Those who were still with me were kar chin and chui yeng...

Well, 27th Jan, it was my last day to serve my temporary company, YEO's.....Not only mine, it was also kar chin's and chui yeng's last day of servin' to their own temporary companies too, it was the last time Central gangstars goin' out to have dinner together before continued our job in a day......

Well, we all promised to keep in touch with each other, and we said ' No matter what, we are forever central gangstars'..... Hope it was to be true....

Two days later, it was 29th, where all of us would get occupied by visitin' each others' relatives.. Some went to Johor Bahru, Pulau Penang, or somewhere else far..Some stayed in KL since hometowns were in KL, I was one of them stayin' in KL.... Haha.. What u thinkin'?Obviously, it was Chinese New Year!

On 6th Feb, as each of central gangstars had promised to hang out together before we left central... It was our first gather-hang-out since we left central.... We were all in red that day, that idea was kar chin's, not mine, any C.G readin' this, dont blame me for that idea, it was kar chin's,blame her, not me!! Haha... We had a great time in mid valley although there was nothin' much to do there.... Haha... They came to my house after that, we gambled for a while, and it was already 7.00pm,everyone gotta go home!

On 27th march, there was a gatherin' for central gangstars... Two objectives, one was for my farewell-gather, and another was for chi hsiang's birthday celebration, everybody except chi hsiang knew about the birthday celebration.... We have bought a shirt for chi hsiang... And actually, the plan wasnt this way, we planned to run the farewell-gather in MV, but ended up switchin' to attap house at night, since everybody said they werent free in the afternoon.... But it wasnt just attap house that day, we went to Mv also, not all, but 5 of us, edson, kar chin, chi hsiang, chui yeng and me.... Somethin' terrible happened, edson's birthday was 3rd march, just one day before chi hsiang's..... Dont blame me, should blame edson, I smsed him askin' when is his birthday, he didnt reply, how would i know? I asked him that day, he told me '3rd March lo'..... Oh my god, I was startin' to panic, I asked chui yeng to lie that she needed to go home earlier, and edson lives just nearby chui yeng, and edson was the only driver besides me..... He got no choice but to fetch her home earlier, I knew he didnt wish to go home that early... But no choice, my plan was to be worked out perfectly.... After they were gone, kar chin and I rushed to buy gift, thanks to my sis, she helped me choose a perfect gift for edson, it was a wallet from his favourite brand, Quicksilver (Everything he wears and has, is all quicksilver and billabong, nothin' else, BUT about his underwears, I didnt know, I never asked) ...... Everythin' was done in time.... So lucky! That night, edson and chi hsiang were so surprised ... Haha... At least it worked out,I was happy although this job was tirin'.... Thanks to kar chin too,for helpin' me work this plan out....

So,this is the point I've made 'Somethin' can be over and done, but NEVER for central gangstars!'

hmmm?central gangstars?

2006-01-16T23:59:00.000-08:00

It was 3rd jan 2006.....Hmmm,should be the first day school reopened since two months ago when the holidays were given to every student and teacher....Frankly speakin',I found it a bit uneasy because I didnt have to wake up so early at 5.30am like i used to...

My god brotha started schoolin',I started workin'....Less chance to meet him liao....It walked me in amazement,chi hsiang and tow swan was also workin' at central....Well,of course I was happy,at least I would have my frenz to accompany me and never had to be alone.....

Days later,I seemed to get a job for kar chin successfully,also at central....Good,another one to accompany me...Haha...But there came a day when a lady offered her a better pay with 50bucks perday for 8 hours including an hour for break...She was hesitatin about whether should she accept the offer or reject?Well,in the end,she found somebody to replace her and she could go for the better offered-job...the somebody was "wai keat"....Also a sentosarian,which same school as me....Knew him also,got another friend here to accompany.....

With all these things happened.....I was sure that I'd never feel lonely....Know why?Because funny,blur,38,talkative,innocent,clever,good people were with me.....Hahaha....And because of this,a troop is born and the name is "central gangstars"!!!It was my idea,just sprung to my mind outta nowhere tonight.....Haha...The current members are chi hsiang,me,wai keat,kar chin,soo aun,and chui yeng.....Gonna ask F&N boys and tow swan to join too...Hope they will nod their heads instead of shakin their heads thinkin' this kinda game is childish...This game is to make sure that we remember the days we worked together at central,not just for fun.....

congratulations to central gangstars!

2006?or still 2005？

2006-01-01T00:30:00.000-08:00

The clock seemed to move on...And it was 11.50pm....I was still in my good fren,tet chuan's house...With a gang of other friends.....We were just done with the dinner before the 2006 countdown at restaurant telephone...We were so full....Lol....Ok,time moved on to 11.59pm..and we were all adi at the hill in bukit gembira....To see the beatiful,glamourous,luxurious fireworks...Haha...."Boom Boom"....It was now 12.00.00am.....Officially,2006!!!!!

Well,2005 was a sad year for me that a lot of heartaches and heartbroken came along......Betrayed by my own bestfriends,fought with ajk of a CLUB,being fooled by someone who i considered him as my own brotha....But it was all over now....I wouldnt treat him as my brotha anymore...Dont wanna get fooled again....But it is time to forget all the sad thingy and tears.....

Hopefully,2006 will be a very great year for me....Anyway,for people who view my blog,HAPPYＮＥＷ YEAR!!!

tick tick tack....

2005-12-13T23:45:00.000-08:00

Tick tick tack,it's a quarter to 12am....And my birthday will officially be over and done.....This year was a great one,i mean my birthday.....Lol.....

Let me count how many friends have sent me their wishes.....Hmmm,there are 3 testimonials on friendster,then there are 12 smses,and 7 messages on msn...so,in total there are 22 wishes from my friends....Or maybe more than that as I might have lost the counts...Lol...

Firstly,i wanna thank my brotha,raynor, he is currently now on a trip,not in m'sia,yet he never has forgotten me and about my birthday.....He sent me an sms around 12am ++,then around 4.40pm,he sent me another sms,afraid of I didnt receive his first sms....See,how carin' he is.....Luv ya forever and ever,my brotha....We gon be brothas until our last breath....Lol...

Secondly,I wanna thank my another brotha,well,at least he still remembers my birthday....he didnt send me sms....But he did wish me on msn...Who knows?Maybe his handphone has no more credits left?ohh,of course I do luv ya too,because you are also my brotha,mun kiat...hope to be your kai kor forever and ever...Keep in touch also,promise?

Thirdly,I wanna thank kar chin,she is such a best friend,she is also now on a trip,in australia....The day before she had her flight,she called me and wished me a early happy birthday...And even today,before my birthday officially ends,around 11.35pm,she sent me a sms from australia!you see?How sweet she is?Ohh,kar chin,you are forever my best friend,I promise ya.....Luv ya so much and forever....

Fourthly,I wanna thank chi hsiang and chui yeng....chi hsiang was the first to send me testimonial...I been his assistant in prefectorial board and red house for this whole 2005,I thought he would forget me once the school life ended,but he didnt..He was faster than anyone else to give me a testimonial...Ohh,he's so good....About chui yeng,well,she was the first to send me birthday sms....She been quite close to me since the diagnostic exams,we studied together....Luv you guys too....Be in touch until we die,ok?Chi hsiang and chui yeng,promise?

Fifthly,I wanna thank shaan,I knew her when i first worked in parkson,I was workin' with my mama,and she was the promoter for toscano brand,just beside where I worked at....she still remember my birthday,that was amazing.....Oops,she will tease me if she knows I said this,but i luv my friends,that's a fact that none can ever change....

Sixthly,I wanna thank yan lyn,soo aun and kar mun for they be givin' me such a unforgettable birthday today.....Ohh,all my good friends here,of course luv ya so much and forever too....Forget-me-not even until you die....

Seventhly,I wanna thank yan lyn,audrey lim,and sui hui for their gift,it was a nice gift,i really like it.....Besides that,i also wanna thank 6 people in a row,who are mun hoe,chun pin,kar voon,kar mun,kar chin and hoi yan for their gift also...I been plannin' to buy a photo album,guess that i dont need to buy any now,because that was the gift from you guys...Thanks a lot..You guys and girls rockz,luv ya forever and ever too because I would never hate such a gang of sweet friends.....

Next,this is a special thank to one of my oldest bestfriend,chia hoong,he no longer livin' in m'sia since end of 2003,he migrated to Australia,quite surprised that he still remembers my birthday....Well,I never forgot yours too....Hahahaa...Oops,Chia hoong,never think another way round,this might be not it,because I also luv you so much as my bestfriend....Remember that I must be the first to meet you whenever you come back to m'sia,ok?Dont break the promise....

Lastly,I wanna thank yan lyn,soo aun,robin,min hoe,wai yee,kok cheng,sui hui,mun hoe,sow wah,sook fen,hoi yan,choo yee,yee mun,tet chuan,wan chin and joseph for all the wishes they gave me....I luv you guys and girls so much.....Promise to keep in touch forever no matter what happens...

As a conclusion,this year's birthday was greater than last year's one, as there are more people givin' me their sincere wishes,last year there were only 8 people wishin' me..Sad,sad...But this year,hehehe..It means that I am still so popular like usual(during school life) or maybe even more popular.....Hahahahaha....I would end this bloggin' by sayin' or even screamin' "I LUV YA GUYS AND GIRLS FOREVER"

party time???

2005-12-11T23:55:00.000-08:00

What can I say about these holidays?Ohh,man,it's so damn borin'!!Lol....Luckily,my birthday is just around the corner,on 13december...My friends organized early birthday celebrations for me...I'm so happy...At least wont stay at home doin' nothin'...Hahaha....

The first birthday celebration was on 3december...That day we went to redbox in sungei wang...Who went with me?Hmmm,kam yu lou(min hoe),colour wolf(kok cheng),miss innocent(may lim),fei po chin(kar chin),and ro si fat guai(chui yeng)....*Si fat guai means butt ghost,ro is ragnarok online*..Lol..You know what?That day,ro si fat guai failed to conceal her lil secrets,oops,girl stuff....She said she cant drink cold water that day,I asked her why...But she felt so shy to answer me...Then i ma knew what was happenin' lo...Her GOODFRIEND lookin' for her that day...Lol....Besides that,everyone got so "H-I-G-H",we sang like there was no tomorrow....Tell you what?When i told my friends about that celebration...All of them were like "Ohh,my god!",all caught up in surprise...."Chui yeng?she went out with you guys?hard to expect that!!" or"Chui yeng?at redbox?she sings?oh,my god!!i'm so surprised!!" or "You makin' up story?I highly doubt if she be goin' out with anyone!"...That day,the one who got most "high" was nobody else but miss innocent,may lim!Wow,she walked me in amazement...She be the one leadin' everybody else be "high" too....Well,she succeeded....That colour wolf had swallowed my 25 bucks....Wei,colour wolf,if you readin' this...Where's my 25bucks???Lol...

The second birthday celebration fell on 8december...This time was with another gang,msn si fat guai(yan lyn),dai jek mun(kar mun),o2jam si fat guai(soo aun),and giants(robin)....We watched narnia that day..I was so surprised when I heard that tet chuan was at mid valley too...Well,I thought he was the type that studies 24 hours a day like bookworm...Well,spm is over,none be studying anymore...But at least,I think he be 24 hours in front of the com..Lol..Dont kill me for sayin' this,tet chuan....He watched narnia too...Nothing much to talk about this celebration,because nothin' special happened...Lol...

I be lookin' forward to havin' the third celebration,but I doubt about its likelihood...I dont think anybody would organize a celebration for my birthday except my family....But,nevermind actually...Because there were already two celebrations,I was happy....Even if the third celebration wont come true,I still am happy....Actually,the only thing I need on my birthday is my god brotha,mun kiat....Anythin' from him can make me so happy,even a wish....All I want for my birthday is my brothas,raynor already gone travellin'...Sad,sad...Left mun kiat,but I doubt if he be goin' out with me on 13december...Well,I aint wantin' their bodies for my birthday...Lol...

wow,is it a dream??

2005-11-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

Oh,my god!!!God bless ya!!SPM is over already,it's OVER?!!!!Well,am I in a dream??Well,there's one more paper on 5th december 2005,and that's an easy one,because all I have to do is to "S-H-O-O-T" whenever I dont know the answer as there are only four options which are A,B,C or D...Dont know,just shoot,I dont wanna study no more liao....Because it's so sufferin'.....

How sufferin' during SPM???The night before that,I found it hard to fall asleep...I think it was just because I was so nervous that the butterflies were in my stomach....Well,so I smsed my teachers...Some teachers were so good that they were awakened by my sms and they did not even hesitate to reply my smses....Well,soon after that,I aint that nervous no more,because of the teachers who gave me a lot of support,I ma here thank them for that...

Next morning,oh,damn!It was BM,a subject which I dont really like and am super weak at it.....So,obviously,BM paper suckzz....Another subject which I find it boring,SEJARAH...Why was I so unlucky that my all confidence had to be gone on the first day?It really got me breakin' down!!!Well,luckily,the second day was BI!!One of my favourite subjects,I wouldnt be so confident that i will score A for that,all i have to do is "H-O-P-E"...But it aint just all that fortunate, as SEJARAH paper2 was right after BI,oh,god-damned SEJARAH...The questions aint meant for normal human beings,but for those extraordinary human beings,Lol....You cant blame me for sayin' that,because it was really so damn difficult....On Wednesday,it was time for MATHS papers.....Well,I was really sad about it,and I hate myself for making a really really stupid mistake that probably would lead 12 marks to 0 marks..Hope that there is ECF(error carried forward)...But I dont know if it even exists....Lol...After maths papers,I was given a short break of 4 days.....

During the break,I didnt think that I did some beneficial things like studyin' or whatever..I think I wasted all 3 days by doin' nothin' and playin' my ps2...The night before COMMERCE paper,I only had my revisions begun....It was a sufferin' too,because I could barely have a sufficient time to sleep,i studied until 6.00am and then I slept for 30 minutes.Woke up at 6.30am then started gettin' myself prepared for the commerce papers...Well,I dont know if it was really hard or easy....I cross my fingers that what I wrote was right,or else....Well,I wouldnt imagine it!!!I got home,and then slept for 3 hours then had to force myself to wake up because next papers are SCIENCE and MORAL....Another sufferin' too, I studied until 4.30am and I planned to take a short nap,I set the alarm at 5.30am,but damn it because I off the alarm and I fell asleep again,holy crap!!!I woke up automatically at 6.30am...And there was no time for me to study anythin' no more....Holy shit too!Outta 48 hours,I only used 5 hours and 30 minutes to sleep...42hours and 30 minutes were all spent of the papers and revisions....Well,as a conclusion,I would say that moral was ok but science was hard...That's all I can say....

There came another break of 5 days.....I wasted 3 days on my ps2...And then saturday and sunday,I forced myself to study like hell!!Oh,my god!!I ma gonna get crazy by that time....ECONS!!!Damn it,I barely knew about form 5 syllabus...I was too occupied with my jobs in my school and I always entered the class so late,I doubt if there was time to listen to what teachers been teachin'.....I coudnt waste my time talkin' lots of craps...I gotta study everythin' within a night....I think if I got A for econs,I would call myself the most intelligent people because I had to re-study whole form5 syllabus within hours since I knew nothin' about it..And at first I really doubted if I could squeeze everythin' and every word into my brain...Well,it was strange this time,because normally I couldnt finish everything in time...And I always stopped and thought for a long time of what the facts were...This time,it flowed so smoothly that I never stopped to think for a long time,and I even could have the time to do an extra question when other students were sufferin' from lackin' of time or insufficient time to finish everythin' in 2 hours....Accounts,this year..The questions were quite unexpected,I did 6 questions,though..I wouldnt say that what I've written were all right,because I am HUMBLE!!(crap,that's a lie,because people say I am LANSI...Lol)..But one thing I dont get is why they didnt have enough time to finish ever question for account,I still had 40 minutes ++ after I finished 6 questions...

That's all for today's bloggin' and that's my life durin' SPM!!

SPM!!!

2005-11-13T18:52:00.000-08:00

Everybody here get it outta control,put your back off the wall,because Mr.Destiny's devil says so...hahahaha.....Hey,all F5,ie. SPM candidates.....You'd better be ready...Because we have to fight the war from tomorrow onwards for almost 20 days.......You gotta get yourself armed with millions of words that you might have seen,or even better if memorized....But I strongly doubt....Lol.....Dont worry anymore,just get it done in a blink of eye and everything will finish....How nice to say "ah,It's OVER!!"....I'd be pleased to hear it from anyone's mouth or even my mouth too.....so,F5....let's go!!!ALL THE BEST!!!

sun comes out again after all the rain......

2005-11-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

Who on earth never had any questions about why their lives are sad and miserable?Who on earth never had any doubts in their lives?Who on earth had never looked bad for their lives?who on earth had never suffered from isolations,alienations,or "lonely-nations"(being or feeling lonely,well,you'll never see such word in dictionary,though)?I bet with my life that everyone had....Okay,let's look into it much deeper......Well,there might be too many questions in our lives,but I'm sure there aint only one solution.....If you choose to remain trapped in the sadness,well,I'm sure that you will never have a chance to find the solutions,remember that God doesnt show us where the solutions are,It just guides us along the way to find solutions...How you gon' move on if you never take yourself out from the sadness?Loneliness,is a very common sickness that most people can never avoid it...You might have thought of the reasons why you are lonely or why nobody likes you...But,never ever change yourself for someone....Be someone that you want,or you are,or you're happy to be and not be someone that people want,or you aint,or you are unhappy to be...You will end up sufferin' from loneliness,because you've been abandoned by you,yourself.....So,never abandon yourself..If people dont like the way you are,just leave..There are billions and billions people in the world,there surely are some people who can get along with you and accept you for who you really are....Me,myself and I strongly stress on this...Next,about happiness and sadness...Without sadness,would you ever know how happiness feels like?Without happiness,would you ever know how sadness feels like?It's just damn meaningless to be only happy without feelin' sad in our whole lives and so is to be sad without feelin' happy....Dont kill your smiles,because you'll never know who be fallin' for your smiles...Yet,dont kill your tears,because you'll never know who be wantin' to protect you.....Time is the ever best remedy to heal all sorrows...It might takes time to heal,though....Lastly,LOVE!What does love actually mean?And what's your definition?For me,love is everythin'....Never think that love only exists between different genders...Because there are also love for family,love for friends,and love for everythin' in this world....There are people who find it hard to say this word "love",especially to the same gender...It might sound or feel so gay-ish and embarrasing.....Well,I was one of those people but now no more...I love everyone that appears in my life.....I love my mama,my papa,my siblings,my best friends,my god brotha,my so-called brotha because they are all very damn important in my life....Well,I dont have a girlfriend yet,if so,I will also love her....Lol...Never ever hide your feelings because you feel weird or shy.....Love is not a thing to be ashamed of but to be proud of....Tell them if you really love them,no matter for who they are, or for how important they are to you....I strongly agree with this phrase "tomrorow can be too late".....Tell them before it's too late..."If we all stand together this one time,and no one will get left behind,stand up for life,stand up and hear me sing,stand up for love"....Be inspired and hopeful "each and everyday of your life",put an end to hopelessness of givin' up,of sufferin'....And you'll see the sun comes out again after all the rain....

2005-11-12T07:22:00.000-08:00

me and my assistants for the prefects' magzine in my school....

poem-how many?

2005-11-11T21:01:00.000-08:00

HOW MANY?

How many people on earth could cry their tears?
Even though they just cant overcome all their fears;
How many people on earth could hide their ears?
Even though the hearsays are far away from here.

How many people on earth have learnt to scream?
Whenever they just find it hard to blow off steam;
How many people on earth have tried to dream?
Whenever they know that their dreams can never gleam.

How many people on earth would stand the pain?
As all the disasters will just come to them again;
How many people on earth would look for rain?
As there are all just heartaches that they are to obtain.

How many people on earth are just to blame?
For they even throw their prides away just for fame;
How many people on earth are just the same?
For they even pollute their names with their shame.

How many people on earth should come with light?
That puts an end to hopelessness and shines bright;
How many people on earth should come with fight?
That kills disappointment and brings no more plight.

Well,should it to be continued?Or should it just end like this?I dont really know....Lol...I hope u guys will gimme some opinions about this....And the title of poem is "How Many?"...It somehow sounds weird....But I really have no ideas about what title should I give....And I would like to hear some comments too.....Lol....Hahaha....

Hmmmm...I wrote this poem on my own....It aint by anyone else......Lol...Hahahaha...

poor me

2005-11-10T23:59:00.000-08:00

What the hell???Today I went back to school to get my school magazine.....And it really disappointed me.....All the poems i submitted to school magazine,have all become rejections....They didnt publish any of my poems,not even one.....Ohh,is it because I'm not from those best classes then they will never publish my poems in the school magazine?What is this?It really suckzz....And my poems aint really that bad!!!!Well,the school is just too evil.....I hate this school!!!!!Thanks to those who were willin' to be such great listeners to share my sadness like Raynor,Ji Wen,Tet Chuan,and Mun Kiat...I luv y' all so much...Muackzz....Well,I wouldnt be that stupid or foolish to let myself be so sad for what the idiot school has done to me...So,I went to Mid Valley to make myself happy....Well,since my best fren,Kar Chin's birthday falls on 15 November 2005,I have bought her a birthday card......Dont ask me if that's the only thing for her 2005 birthday...Well,since she and I will be havin' SPM soon,so,we aint gonna make her a birthday celebration on her actual birthday....Well,that's too much for a secret.....All my plannings will be a secret until I have implemented them....Wahahahaha.......I just wont let the kitten outta the bag....Well,I'm the type like Raynor said,that get angry all of a sudden,even if there's no reason to and me,myself and I know that I'm the type that easily "eating vinegar"(means jealous).....So,I complained to them about what the school has done to me,then they tried their hardest to comfort me,hahahaha....They never really expected that I would "t-w-i-s-t" the words from their mouths into some teasings,so that I can get angry and to eat my vinegar...Sorry ah,Mun Kiat...Maybe I act like a child,but I dont care what people think about me,because I am me,myself and I...Lol....And I know y' all will just accept me for who I am,right?Once again,thanks for that......Hey,SPM le...Just 4 days left le,I cant wait to get it done in just a blink of eye!!!!Hahahaha...And then I can have my time to relax my mind for I have been studyin' for years non-stop-ly and never gave my mind any time to rest....Hahahahaha.....Today was a challengin' day,though!!!

cool.....

2005-11-09T23:55:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm,why is it a cool day?I also dont really know....But,well,today not a sad day,that's for sure!!So,no more complainin'!!Some of my friends said that my blog is a thing for me to post all my complaints.....But too bad that there wont be any complaints tonight....Ohh,this is specially dedicated to Ji Wen since he's the one who said that..Hahahaha...Supposedly,today's an angry day.....My brotha,raynor did somethin' that would obviously make me angry,but he didnt dare to say what he did...I asked him to tell me what he did,he agreed but with a condition that I cant get angry for what he did.....Well,I promised him that I wouldnt get angry,so i wouldnt break the promise!!Well,I shall praise him for breakin' the record that he didnt make me angry for this whole day...Lol...And I think he's a bit "out of order" tonight!!!he just cant stop callin' me "MASTER",I asked him why,he said to me "Because you're my master,and I'm your minion"...I was like gettin' so crazy that I couldnt calm myself down as he was "out of order"..Hahahaha...Soon after that,he was back to normal...Hahahaha...Besides that,my god brotha, Mun Kiat,I also didnt know what happened to him....Because normally when he comes online,he wont be the first to say "hihi" to me,I usually be the first to say "alo" to him,then only he replies.....He usually waits for me to do so or he wont chat with me,but tonight he took the initiative to say "hihi" to me...Quite happy la...Lol...And about the god-damned history...I thought I couldnt remember a thing about it,but just now talking to my best friend,Kar Chin on the phone,the HISTORY suddenly came from nowhere to our minds,so we made a lil discussions about history,quite surprisin' that I could remember somethin' about it....I found back the confidence that I have lost in history and successfully regained it....There are just 5 more days left for my spm to come,and my heart beat a lot faster than usual whenever the word "SPM" is called to my mind..It just springs to my mind outta nowhere.....Kinda nervous...Hope that I will pass my SPM with flyin' colour....Will y' all gimme your supports?Lol...Today goes by with a happy endin' and tomorrow will be a new chapter for "each and everyday of my life"...Hahahaha...

haih....

2005-11-08T23:30:00.000-08:00

Nothing but sadness happened today......I was tryin' my hardest to study my god-damned HISTORY!!But it's just like nothin' could ever brain me into it......I could remember nothin' about what I've studied......guess I'm gonna screw my history up....But well,I will never give up until my last breath,I will try my best to work it out.....Since there are still 6 days more to go.....And then got somebody made me sadder,one of my classmates,I asked her for history tips as I'm desperately in need.....I don't really wanna screw my history up...Ya,she did wanna gimme,but then i begged her to type in microsoft words so that it will be much clearer and much more vivid...Well,she refused to do that...So,I also won't get myself to beg her again,I totally got myself out from asking her for tips,I'd rather to depend on my own if I've gotten to beg some fella more than once....That made me realize somethin' though,people will cross the line if they have gotten somethin' good that some other people need or want...They will think that they are very big with somethin' useful on their hands....Haihzzz...Maybe this is what we used to call "realistic" gua....How sad life is??Well,gotta strive harder then....No choice...Lol...I will remember those who have given me a lot of supports,concerns,tolerance,encouragement and help in my heart always....I luv y' all forever and ever.....Muackzzz....Lol...Hahaha...

hmmmmm.....weird dream...

2005-11-07T23:30:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.....Something might have happened today but it didnt cuz I have spent half of the day sleeping...I woke up at 4pm++...I was thinking of what would ever happen during my sleep,if I woke up earlier than that?lLol.....Yesterday,my brotha made me so moody and sad....that's why I slept for so long...from 10pm to 4pm...Between the duration,he did sms me,and I was half asleep and half awoke,replying his smses....lol....I didnt actually know what i wrote in those smses.....I made weird dream anyway,I didnt know what exactly happened in that dream,all that I remember is I saw some of my frenz like kar chin,mei seen,and so on.Besides that,I remember that there were three dogs,I think they wanted to bite me,but they didnt, maybe they didn't dare gua....Lol...Ohh,i thought i could see how my dear brotha,raynor looked like,but too bad,it's true that he did appear in my dream,but it was just a call from him,talking to him,and then I didnt know what happened later,he again made me angry,lol....Wonder why he still likes to make me angry all the times,even in my sleep or in my dreams!Lol...What a funny and weird dream...By the way,ohh,my god!!!!Only a week left la....7 days only,then my spm comes liao....Oh,god!!!Oh help me!!!Oh,god,gimme the strength...Lol.....Gotta work hard like hell in these 7 precious days, or else.....Oops,I couldnt really imagine that....That's all for today and the day is almost gone by...Hahaha....

boring day....

2005-11-06T16:30:00.000-08:00

hmmmm.....i dont really know why i would create a blog le.....well,it is already created,so dont waste it.....i will maximize the use of this blog.....lol.....today wokep up at 11am++....and i found myself alone at home.....and i've got nothing to do....guess it surely is a boring day.....so,i went to online,and then my brotha,raynor made me so angry,he kept on asking me what did he do,i didnt wanna tell him,i asked him to ask himself about what he did that made me angry.....he said he couldnt find the answer!that made me angrier.....argh....i guess that's how today goes by.....hmmm,spm is just around the corner!!oh,my god!!only left 8 days....i'm having butterflies in my stomach.....oh,god!!!really scared la!!